Wow, I cannot believe I'm almost half way there. Time is flying by, and I feel like if I don't start getting serious soon about preparing for this little girl, it's going to be March and I'm going to be scrambling!
I look certifiably pregnant at this point, which I LOVE. I honestly still cannot believe that I am pregnant. And, in less than 5 months I will have a daughter. A little girl. I just stand in pure amazement and awe of how God has worked this out. Think about it... on this round of IVF, we went from 26 mature eggs down to one, "perfect" looking baby in the oven. Twenty-six possible embryos... possible children, and just one was all we needed and what God provided to give us our miracle and create our family.
It was two years ago this month that we started "trying" for a family. Last year at this time, I had just experienced the first disappointment of a failed IUI, which I really thought would work. Although I am in a blissfully happy place right now, I do not forget for a minute the heartache and heartbreak. In fact, I think I almost appreciate it more now... in the moment, it was hard, very hard, but all you could do is push through. But, looking back, I realize I probably didn't give myself enough grace (and maybe that was good) to realize how really hard it was at times. And, I am fully aware of how blessed we are. Truly. It could have been a much longer journey, but so far, God has met us where He needed to. To HIM be the glory.
Baby girl has not been as active today (I think she might have flipped because she was head down/face down so her feet and butt were in prime position to feel some action), but over the last few days, I cannot even get over how much I have felt her moving around in there. It's unreal. I can't wait until Matt can feel it.
Seems kind of crazy, but we have our first baby shower next weekend. Matt's dad's side of the family is throwing us a small little family shower since the crew will all be in town at his uncle's for Thanksgiving. Very exciting, but mostly excited just to see everyone. It's been a few years since we've seen his Aunt Mariah (lives in CA), so it will be fun.
In less exciting news, I toured another daycare yesterday which I liked but it was $1600/month! Holy crap. I feel like I might need to sell a kidney. It still makes sense for me to work even at that price, but with two, it would definitely be a different conversation. I would be spending most of the month working just to pay for childcare. Aye. On that note, back to earning my paycheck... I'll need it!